hmm im so down now thinking abt it.. hmm :( i feel like crying sometimes.. i dunno how should i react to it.. i dunno wat should i do to make it better... i cant believe on wat i see the other day... upon seeing those msges makes my heart dropped. hmm.. haiz.. i hope everything will be better soon. im trying to mend things.... with the help n advice from the others.. hmm i realli hope it works in some kind of way....

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hmmm yeah here i am again... hmmm nothing much to say.. well yeah im a gal with less words anyway. hah~

oh apparently the days that he didnt contact me he went for outfield camp. hmm thats y. i wont get to see him soon. its worse than him goin to taiwan. haiz.. its been 3weeks now. hmmm goin to be a mth soon. haiz.. i juz cant wait for this batch to get done with their bmt. n for higher goals i juz cant wait for another 6mths. where he ends his ns.. haiz... pls pls pls let it be over soon...

hmm ok i need some retail therapy.. i will confirm with u soon lah gal.

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since fana ask me to update to practise on my english, so here i am.. haha~ my english sucks anyway... ph n there's nothing to update abt actualli..

took half day today. went to tamp to meet up with the 2 gals. fussy n yuan lin. heh~ been long time since last saw them.. walked ard tamp mall. didnt know exactly where to have our lunch. end up at pizza hut. (oh now i remember should tell my colleague not to go to pizzahut tmr)hehe~ had set lunch. chic a go.. sat at the round seats. feel uncomfortable. haha~ not used to it. ate at slow pace.. cos felt full. hah~

then sent off yuan lin to interchange. while me n fussy went to bugis. heh~ bought a pair of shoes n 2 tops. ok i think i need to send the shoes to cobbler first. i forgot to check the sole. its slippery.. haiz~

i like the 2 tops. cos its long. not long sleeves but long in the length. ah nvm. haha~

went home after that.. im addicted to shopping after so long... heh~ hmmm need to find more shoes, sandals, tops. haha~ im totally addicted... anyone wanna come along?? juz give me a call/msg. hahahahahahah~ im totally on it! hahahaha crazy.. i want tunics too..! haha

ok another story.....
most of my frens know abt this already since i already told them. hmm i juz make a quick one here. haha~ i hate guys who dont understand... im trying to avoid u, dont u know or notice that???!! keep asking me the same qn.. n have the cheek to ask me the qn that i have already stated way b4 it...! n still dont understand after i said i need my own space.. it means go away!! dont disturb me!!!!!! (ask me if u want to know wat im talking abt) hehe~ oh anyway it has got nothing to do with mr gazerin. hmm


oh im listening to everybody's advice to juz ignore avoid him hah~ even gazerin told me to do so..
oh n im kinda angry with gazerin too after one incident. hmm he's not been contacting me for like hmm since tue.. n have not been meeting him for like more than 2 weeks. ok i know i already type this. but i feel like typing again. hmmm haiz i dunno y... ok i know y..

fine bye..

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i miss goin out...! :-C i miss shopping!! i need to buy loads of stuffs.. last mth's pay i didnt buy anything for myself.. hah~ i didnt believe it myself.. well maybe a few stuffs like a tudung for me. other than that for others.. hmm n fakhirin's bday gift. well ya basically thats all.. hah~ hmm i need to buy new shoes.. i need to buy long tops.. sickening all tops a short.. haiz~ i mean the length of the top not the sleeves part.. heh~ hmmm ok tmr gonna take half day. gonna meet up with fussy n yuan lin for lunch. hmm im thinking should i go down to tamp... heh~ hmm wat else.. oh i haven meet him for weeks now.. nvm its ok.. my colleague was like saying that every week she needs to meet up with her bf at least twice a week. hmm.. ok done abt that.

nowadays i feel so lazy to go to work.maybe bcos im back to doin the artist taxes again. haiz.. im getting the hang of it. but i still dont realli like doin it... moreover i have no more frens left working there. haiz.. end up i keep goin off early or not coming to work. heh~ result to lesser money.. hmmm well i dont realli mind abt that. or should i???

oh anyway yest morning, my colleague received a call saying he was supposed to report for reservist which he totally forgot abt. hah~ he said he received an sms 6 mths ago thats y he forgot all abt that.. so he went back home to get into his uniform n went to report. its quite funny. heh~ by fri he will be back again. hah~

oh mr brownie still working there same goes to mr m. hehe~ hmm i got to see mr brownie the other day.. hehehehehehe~ smile :-)

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sorry for the lack of updates. hehe~ as usual i juz dont have anything to update abt. hehe~
well yet again didnt go to work today.. haha~ felt weak to go to work. dunno y.. hmmm maybe nothing to look forward to nothing much to be done n no click... haiz~

i still haven talk to my dad abt my idea. dunno whether he will agree to it or not.. well maybe he wont agree to it... haiz~ maybe i juz have to try n ask first. hopefully the best.

well haven been doin much lately.. onli some raya visitings, go out with my lil cousins, n went out with my sec sch frens. hmm other than that ive been working, staying at home n do nothing. hah~

on last fri sent off my uncle to airport. he went to france again for 2 mths this time. then next yr he will be goin there again for 5 yrs.. he will be goin with his wife. the daughters will be staying here with us at our house. so we'll have 2 extra members. heh~ hmm been planning how we goin to sleep. maybe 2 by 2 goin to take their bunk beds put at my sis's room. hmm oh they not goin there this time cos they wanna take their o levels first since they missed the chance of taking psle last time..

hmm tmr another of my cousins n their parents goin back to brunei.. prob goin to send them off to airport.. didnt get anything for them. hmm should i buy anything?? hmm i need to go out to return book to library should i make pit stop to northpoint or something for them?? hmmm i dunno. im juz so lazy... hehehehehe~~~

wat else... oh i have not seen mr gazerin for quite some time now.. he's in fieldcamp. today will be the last day. will book out tmr. hopefully will get to see him. but im not sure whether i can.. seem so bz gitu.. heh~

oklah nothing exciting to talk abt. till then.

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